Hello All,
I thought I would give an update because it's been pretty quiet around here.
At the end of 2023 I found out a loved one had stage four cancer. In the beginning of 2024 there was a broken femur, and three surgeries, after which we weren't sure how much longer we would have with this person. However, God stepped in sending a few doctors to have conversations which resulted in pain management and cancer treatments. These things have kept my loved one here. We are now at the point where having changed between several different chemotherapy courses, treatments are no longer working. Yet, this person is feeling the best they have felt in a long time. So while no more treatments will be happening, and hospice is now in view, I am amazed at the way God has worked. He has kept their pain minimal and their nausea non existent through all treatments. He has sent people to have conversations when needed and continues to show Himself throughout this entire process. At the beginning of 2024 He gave me a tremendous amount of peace, and that peace has not left me for even a second. I am so grateful I don't have to go through any part of life without Him. That was the biggest news making everything else seem minor in comparison, but I am going to share other changes because God doesn't just dwell in the big things, He is in every area of my life.
Onward we go, the next area of growth deals with relationships. God has really been showing me what Biblical friendship looks like and unfortunately what it doesn't. Over the past few years friendships have come and gone. The going is the hardest part for me, but I know some people are only in my life for a season. I think my struggle has been it seems as though almost everyone has only been there for a season and I long for fruitful, close-knit Biblical friendships. In the past few years I have lost several friendships and within the past few months a group I had been a part of for a few years is no longer in my life. While it was time for many reasons for me to leave, I still feel a bit sad about the loss. God has shown me there is a difference with coming to someone in love because we want what is best for them, and coming to someone with condemnation. He has shown me I was depending on others first instead of Him first, which never results in joy and fruitfulness. I still have quite a few selfish habits to surrender to Him so I can truly have a servant's heart, and love others the way He wants us to love. I have learned a lot through the hurt, and God knows what is best for me way more than I do. The work He is doing is challenging but always worth it because it glorifies Him and draws me into deeper relationship with Him. I am trusting that when it is time He will bring me the community He wants me to have.
As I have been thinking about community He has helped me realize that it begins with my husband and children. If I can't love them well, then I definitely can't love those outside my family well. I am learning how to love them better and He is stretching me in regards to homeschooling. This past year my second child came up to me and asked to graduated early with his brother next year. I agreed that we could try to make that happen, and while it will be a rigorous year full of growth for all of us, I do anticipate graduating both my oldest two children in November of 2026. Just saying those words brings a touch of sadness, because it reminds me I have only a year left teaching my boys and it is throwing me for a loop emotionally. Yet, God is good and I know He will guide me through. He has them in His hands, even when my role changes after they graduate.
I will be sharing more of our journey throughout the year, because as I follow His lead, He has asked me to be more consistent in sharing here. It's terrifying which is probably why I haven't been obedient as I should, but it's time. He is showing me how to realign my priorities, and to be disciplined in my obedience, so that is what I am going to do. I am going to trust and follow even though I feel ill equipped for all the things He is calling me to do. I know He has my back and there is fruit to be had when I obey, so the emotions don't get to drive the bus, instead they get surrendered at the Lord's feet.
The most wonderful thing is the knowledge that there is so much freedom in my obedience. Even when people I considered friends keep falling away, even when there is pain or heartache, even when the enemy tries to keep me focused on my past or my feelings, God never leaves my side. Not only is He always with me, His ways are far superior to mine. This past year has taught me I have no desire to be a lukewarm Christian, I am seeking the same fire I had when He first found me, and I know it will look different because I have already grown and changed so much since first being saved, but I also know having Him in my life is worth so much more than this world could ever offer me.
Welcome to this new chapter and let's see what the Lord has in store because I'm just following the path He wants me to. I may stumble and trip along the way, but when I repent I am always forgiven. Here's to trust, faith and love.
Thank you for taking time out of your day to read this update. I hope you are having a blessed day.
With Love,
Melanie









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